phillykidd

I wish we were by ourselves. I seriously do. It's as if everything went downhill since the "reunion" began. We were never struggling we weren't doing great but at least everything was stable. Now it's like we're struggling all the time. We can't make everyone happy people have to take care of their responsibilities. So why would you try and take care of other people's responsibilities? I don't get it, I don't get how anybody can let themselves be taken advantage of the way she does. When she "helps" out she end up hurting herself. I can't give out loans to people that can't pay back on time or not at all. You don't see me saying I'm going to do something and then wait til it's about that time to do it. I take care of it as soon as possible. I just wish she would stand up for herself and not let people get anything they want. Yeah people won't be happy but who cares we need to take care of what we can handle. Trying to be the hero and carry everything on your back doesn't do you any good. It won't make money fall out the air into your hand, it will just make things harder. I'll just take this lesson in for when I have a child, I'll definitely do my best to see to it that he/she will take care of what they made/started. I just wish Samantha didn't have to suffer. All she ever does is look out for everyone else and what happens? They steal from her, lie to her, always begging as if they done did so much for her. Like leave us alone we're trying to make our lives better and people with their hands out doesn't make it any better. I swear if this keeps going people are going to hate me because I'm going to stop being quiet and speak up. I want to get the hell out of this dumb ass town and go to California so I can get a better opportunity to better my life and Samantha's. I wish my mom weren't so crazy smh I miss being there. I was so close to having at least 2 g's a month and we could have took over that apartment. Maybe I should've just went by myself 1st and then took everything over and came back and got her. No regrets though, I'll just have to find my own way I guess. Ugh man I can't wait til I get a apartment, I'm taking her with me so she can get away from all the mess. 50 g's a year not a lot but it sure not sounding bad right about now. I think I might go on and be what my dad once was (without all the shooting lol) might go for an inside job like my sis did when she was pregnant so her baby wouldn't get capped lol. Police Academy or Art Institute hmmm idk man gonna have to choose one soon I just want to make my dad and my girl proud.