ehh

so the way xmas went was well
how can i say it sucked. i didn't
expect anything but i got some
manly cologne from avon that
sam likes...a lot but yea that's not
what i'm pissed about. i'm pissed
for the fact that people don't know
how to shop for toddlers. u know that
v-smile shit on them commercials
ya know the flashy shit u connect to
the tv so u can "learn and play" ok
so dasia gets that and a cabbage patch
aww u would think that nice right ?
taliyah got a baby laptop and a cabbage
patch so u think its ok right ? wrong
the oldest one brianna gets the most shit
out of the whole family got a damn
boombox a bratz doll some other shit
all i know is she spoiled as shit and
that ain't right at all i thought u were
suppose to take care of the babies
first then u get the big ones first how df
a 12 year old get more shit than a 2,3 and
almost 1 year old ? u know how much
cheap shit u can buy for lil kids that they
would be so happy with ? yes the v-smile
is good but why df do u need it ? they
need TOYS video games can come later get
them some dolls and shit one cabbage
patch aint gonna do them lil barbie peek-
a-boos like 5-10 dollars each get some
of them and the playhouse and shit see
i don't show emotion when it comes to
shit cuz it doesn't change how people feel
9 out of 10 times so i just sdfu but i get
tired of dasia crying. u know how fucking
mad/sad i get when i heard her say
"i don't got a present" cuz brianna got
a whole lot more and then the bitch
got the nerve to take her pizza but u
posed to be older u a fucking baby
in a big ass body i just want to snatch
her ass up and jump on a bus cuz she
don't deserve this everyone always wanna
show shit off in front of her and always
taking shit from her but nah i ain't gonna
show emotion cuz ppl don't give a shit
now why give a shit cuz someone yelled
at u ? smh i know sam don't wanna leave
her mom but when is enough...enough ?
i don't want brandasia always wanting something
when she can have it a whole different way
i get tired of sam and brandasia getting hungry
and it aint no damn food i'm tired of sam always
struggling in this depressing ass town and
i ain't saying philly perfect but shit its better
than this st louis is gonna come later otherwise
we wouldve been there. i aint tryna go cuz thats
where i'm from it's cuz i want us to have better
days than this. this is pure bullshit, it wouldnt
matter if we went to the unemployment office
and tried to look for a job with transportation
it would be much harder than going for a job in
a city with public transportation. i came here to
be with u so we could be happy, well now its
our turn to make sure shes happy. not demanding
a change of thought just want u to think about it
for me. i love you. merry x-mas