My girl.

It was too long to put as a msn status so I'm just gonna post it before I end up falling asleep lol. I love you more than you imagine, I know I hurt you and now I have to make it up. I now understand what you meant before when you told me you wanted me all to yourself well now I want you all to myself and I will get what I want because I'm willing to fight for it. I'm selfish for your love, I don't want anyone else to have it, and when I thought it was being given to someone else my body literally gave out but I know it shouldn't even have gone to that point. I will do whatever it takes to make it better which is why I'm working so we can have a better life back at home. I know I didn't show it but you mean the world to me. I literally don't think I could live life without as emo as that sounds I just love you that much I remember at one point you told me I was clingy but I shouldve just ignored it and kept being affectionate towards you. I have a tendency to hide my feelings way too often especially when it comes to interests like even when I say a band is wack or say u listen to them too much I honestly like them. I wish I could've saw my mom one more time before she was gone to thank her for making me a sheltered child because I would've never met you. You're the best thing to me, you're the most beautiful girl in the world and I need to start showing that on a everyday basis. I got real happy seeing your face on cam, my hoody looks good on you I hope please feel free to not take it off at all lol. I miss you so much I can't wait til I get home. I know I've broken promises but this will be my last time making promises because I simply wont break them. I promise I'll have confidence in us and that nothing is going on. I promise that I won't ever leave you again. I promise that I'll spend as much time with you as I can cause I mean the friends I got now not going to be around later in life when I think of it I barely talk to people now all I wanna do is talk to you and darian of course and sometimes gabby. I miss my baby dasia I wish she could be in school :/ is kindergarten necessary? cuz if it isnt she can just jump to 1st grade shit she smart enough. I miss everybody but I miss you the most. I know you might think the way I'm acting is temporary but I promise it's nit that I just realized that I need to stop doing what I'm doing and I know I'm pretty late but I'll work on it. You and Dasia are all I have now I mean don't get me wrong I love your mom and the rest of the fam but I single you guys out the most because you guys are my family. I love you so much that it hurts lol but it hurts good when things are going good and when things are bad well I pretty much can't eat, I pretty much can't sleep and I seriously mean that. I'm not overdoing this or at least I hope I'm not I'm just trying to insure you that I'm no longer that guy that broke your heart last month. I love you baby I hope I can make enough money to make it in time for your birthday I already know what I want to get for you other than mvc3. I also promise that I won't disregard anything that's bothering you so don't feel as if you can't talk to me. I want our communication to be better because it won't work if it isn't of course you already know that. I just want to show you I've changed and I'll keep showing until- wait lol until? nah I'll just keep showing you, period. I know you might not consider us currently together but in my eyes you're mine regardless which is probably why I freaked out all them times smh anyways I can keep going but if I do you won't even bother reading if you haven't already lmao. I love you Samantha, can't wait til I get home, you're the only girl in my world. DS110807