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you would think this wouldnt be a issue after 14 months but trust has been a serious issue with you. i dont know maybe you think i'm messing around with my female friends, maybe you think im like them people that be on tv that be having they wives clown em talking about they be cheating on them with other females on the internet. well we going to take this back so i could catch up with the coincedence. when i 1st got here and we had phones who was the one texting most of the time? you. did i trip? no who was the main person u talked to? rell who did you say u could always talk to? not me, rell. who apparently was always there to talk to you? rell. when your phone turned off the 1st time who u wanted to talk to? rell who was always in your myspace status talking about u missed him? rell. now see after all that when i wasnt on anything or texting people i didnt trip but after i tripped that one time where i got it misunderstood u told me that u and him didnt have anything going on and that i shouldnt even think like that and i have even if ya phone was on right now i kno he would be the one u be talking to as i type this blog but i wouldnt be mad about it. so why for some reason u cant trust me with my female friends? u say u aint got shit to worry about but u always accuse me of messing around. all the sarcastic jokes all the attitude changes when i got on yahoo ok u have to realize the only reason i started getting back on yahoo because aint shit in hayti i came here thinking oh i aint got to be on yahoo we gonna be out and shit and i have a job but no aint shit here so thats what made me wanna get back on yahoo and how can u get mad at me for getting on yahoo when i met YOU on there? and we get a lil further into the present, who did u question about when i was on socialstatus? nae if u didnt realize that that one girl that u asked me who that was, was nae. i talked to her cuz she told me the site was cool and we became friends so then u so call get the assumption that i ignored u and decided to hand me my ring back so let go to a new years of 08 what did u say? u would never leave me? u would never break my heart? u took the ring off and handed it back to me u broke the engagement without even thinking of how i'd take it which i constantly still think about today i take that as a dump to be quite honest and aint nothing changing it cuz u said emotions aint a excuse to do anything so yea u basically told me u aint wanna be with me and decided to make up, great fine, so now cuz me and nae good friends u think i like her? ok #1 i got on there to talk to darian and i was talking to her until he got on cuz i wanted to talk to him. nowwww we go into the subject where u assume i tell everybody about us. wrong. only one i talk to about us is darian which be shit that already happened so why cant i tell him he my brother the only nigga other than tyquan that i trust to talk to about shit like that just because u dont feel like u dont have to do that doesnt mean im wrong by doing that u act like i talk shit about u and say i wanna go with other girls i dont i just be talking to him about old shit and get his opinion thats it. i mean come on i been here for 6 months u think imma fuck with someone that lives miles and miles away? seriously? u told me i was tripping about rell now im teling u u tripping about nae, brishee, anyone else u assume i mess with, i dont know maybe u see someone else in me that did u wrong but im not that person. i chose u over my family, i spent my last dollars to be here, i gave up a better oppurtunity for a job and a year of school because i love you but it doesnt seem like thats enough to convince u that u the only one smh even after u handed my ring back my feelings didnt change. and u told me yourself u know i got friends and u wouldnt be mad if i got on yahoo but what do u do? u leave the room. why i be on for hours? cuz u give me neglect by...LEAVING THE ROOM i would get off way earlier if you wouldnt act like that its mad confusing make up your mind. can i have friends or not? even after u took pics that made me feel uncomfortable like them pics in just your shirt and towel and pulling down the shirt i still aint think negative of anything.i be fucking with you when i be tryna act like im nosey and shit but nothing serious. man if u cant trust me i dont know how u expect this to work, its been a year and 2 months man i mean...come on...please just come on..u cant be thinking i would waste my time like this i couldve still been in philly if i wanted to waste time man smh i love you, hope you end up trusting me after this blog.

oh and i like how u took me off ya page, dont worry ill keep u on mine thats if u even care.