Melancholy

Hmm Home I Guess..Not Really In Such A Great Mood..

Well Today Was Not Really That Good..After Realizing What I Said To Sam Yesterday. All I Heard In My Head Was "U Worst Then Diamond" Over And Over. Might Of Been Jokin But She Was Right The 1st Time When She Said "You Went Too Far". Hmm I Tried To Sleep In My Classes And Couldnt. I Was So Stressed Out That When My Spanish Teacher Touched Me I Pushed His Ass Off His Feet. My Friend Kept Askin Me Whats Wrong When She Saw A Tear Go Down My Face And Shit. I Was Quiet All Day When I Usually Is The Main One Talkin..Smh Hmm I Guess I Feel Bad. I Shouldve Never Compared Her To Diamond Whether I Was Serious Or Jokin Cuz She's Nuthin Like Diamond. I Wouldnt Be Surprised If She Felt Sum Way From That...I Deserve It Dis Time, That Was A Bullshit Ass Move And It Took me Damn Hours To Realize It Smh Ugh I Get So Frustrated With Myself Smh Its Ridiculous Wow I Just Hate It. Always Sayin Summin So Dumb, Always Mentionin My Ex's, Like Why Do Dat, Prolly Makes Her Think Im Not Over Em When I Know I Am But I Aint In Her Mind So What Am I To Say She Know Im Over Em, Smh Im Dumb As Shit Ugh I Think Im Finna Take A Nap Or Something Hmm Nuthin Else Better To Do..*Signs*

Melancholy - Sadness or depression of the spirits; gloom