Headache

So Um Yea..I Woke Up With Some Damn Temporary Amnesia..And Um Yea I Messed Up One Again...After Realizing What I Did After Repeatin My Actions To Get My Memory Back I Guess...Or At Least Thats What I Read In My Archive. So Uhh Yea I Done Hurt Sam...Again Smh No No I Aint Mad At Myself Just Dissapointed In My Actions Like Real Bad. I Can Be A Pure Dumass 99.8% Of The Time Im Breathing Smh I Swear I Can Be. So Yea I Can Tell I Done Did Summin Bad Just From The Way Shes Talkin To Me. Hm She Has Her Rights To Be Upset, Every Right To Hmm I Shouldnt Have Said Dat Dumb Shit, Im Surprised She Aint Just Dump Me, I Damn Sure Wouldve If I Was Her. Hm Guess U Can Call Me Lucky I Guess Or Maybe She Just Still Thinkin Bout Wat To Do. Shit Ionno Man Its Really Hard Tryna Be So Good For Somebody That It Makes U Dumb Shit Like Basically Actin Like U Dont Need Her Wen U Damn Sure Kno U Do, Da Fuck Is Up Wit Dat. Am I Tryin To Hard To The Part Where I Become Opposite Of What I Truely Am? A Asshole? Or Maybe Im A Asshole And Tryna Make That Point Clear Or Maybe Im Mentally Ill. Wow Who Knows..All I Know Is I Really Fucked Up Dis Time And This Time...Ionno If I Can Fix It. I Really Did Summin I Never Would Think I Would Do, Which Means I Dont Have Any Rebounds For It..So What Da Fuck I Got Now? Daniel Finally Doesnt Know Shit Wen It Comes To Relationships? He Fucks Up Da Worst Wen He Probably Had The Best Girl He Could Ever Had? Sounds Like Me Beatin Up Myself Rite? Nah Im Jus Questionin Myself Cuz Im Really Confused. I Guess I Been Such A Bitch Towards Other Females Dat I Wanted To Show Sam Dat I Didnt Wanna Be Walked Over Like I Was Nuthin..So I Act Like A Asshole Thinkin Dat It Helps..Yea Dats Real Smart. Ugh Man Im Jus Sorry Man Im SO Sorry Man Ionno Y I Keep Sayin Sorry Man It Doesnt Change Shit Smh...Its Still There U Cant Erase That Shit. Ugh My Head Hurt So Bad...Dis Headache Is Killin Me, Im Cryin Cuz Ionno Wat To Do And Im Probably Gonna Regret This And Keep Bringin It Up And The Future Smh...Dis Is So Fuckin Horrible...This Shit Makes Me Just Wanna Dig A Hole And Lay In It, I Feel Like Daveon In My Story...Smh Im So Fuckin Stressed Man Ionno If i Can Even Take Dis..Man Imma Just Lay Down I Guess...Think Of Wat I Needa Do To Save Dis...

Im Sorry Sam...