Just Thoughts

I Did Say I Was Gonna Say Imma Blog Today..Hmm I Need I Got Too Many Thoughts On My Mind. Alot Of Shit Been Goin Threw One Ear, And Wont Go Out The Other.

Hmm My Mom Kinda Scared For Me Cuz I Fell For Sammy So Fast...Dates Back To Almost 2 Years Ago, When My "1st Love" Left Me On My Mom B Day. I Was Only With Her For A Month But I Was So Sprung I Was Willing To Give Her My All. I Bought Her Stuff, Took Her Out, The Whole Package, And She Just Left Me..Without Even Any Signs. And The Messed Up Part About It Is She Got Her Friend To Tell Me She Aint Wanna Be With Me Anymore Instead Of Just Telling Me Herself. Shit Hurted Bad, My Mom Never Saw Me So Depressed. I Was Down All Day Everyday For Maybe A Couple Months && Then I Got Over Her. She Just Wants Me To Be Careful Bout Who I Choose && Now Shes Back At That "Ehh" Mode Cuz Im In Love With Sammy And Its Only Been A Month Yet Again. I Trust Sammy, I Just Wish My Mom Could Read My Mind And Understand Why I Feel The Way I Do. She Connects To Me So Well, The Missing Piece Of The Puzzle, The Key To My Heart, She Different Thats Why Im Willin To Go All The Way With Her. She Makes Me Feel Brand New And I Love It, I Thrive Off It.

Hmm One Of My Friends Is Like...Shit Aint No Like..Shes Basically Gettin Played And I Dont Know If I Should Tell Her Cuz Im Cool With Her Boyfriend. Im Cool With Dude But At The Same Time I Dont Like It When Females Are Mistreated. Its Not Cool At All, Cuz I Kno If She Was Playin Him, He Would Want To Know. Im Not Gonna Stress Bout It, Im Just Tryna Be Wise Bout What Decision I Choose. Cuz Who Knows? Who Knows If He Actually Changes His Ways And Then She Gets In My Face "Why Did I Listen To You?!" But Then Again..I Highly Doubt It. Men Barely Are Willing To Change They Ways..For ANYONE, Sad But True.

Hmm Christmas Tommorow...My Bio Dad Once Again Not Here To Celebrate With Me. U Can Say I Miss Him, Hmm Somewhat, Im So Used To Bein Raised Without A Man That I Could Care Less, But Hey From What My Mom Told Me, He Was A Great Man So Why Not Miss The Dude? It Aint LIke He Chose To Go, God Chose It For Him, Cant Argue With That, At Least I Got Sammy As A Christmas Present..Thats All I Need As Of Now, Noone Is There Cept Her So Yea.

Oh Yea Happy B Day Again To My Sister Ashley Me Love U :]