Hmm..Blasting Instrumentals i Guess..No Need To Hear Words Right Now..Cuz I Wont Pay Attention To Em.
Hmm...I Was Pretty "Eh." On My So Called Comeback From Jail And Shit. Patriots 16-0 Didnt Even GM It. Like All I Watch And I Wasnt Even Happy That Tom Brady Broke Peyton Manning TD Record, Or That Randy Moss Broke Jerry Rice's Record Or For The Fact That They Were The 1st Team To Go 16-0...My Mind Was Just Blank With Thought. Pacing Back And Forth...On The Phone And Ish..And I Stopped At The Mirror..As If I Forgot Something. I Kept Lookin At It..Not Givin No Regard To The Phone. And Like My Mind Was Playin Tricks On Me.
Ya Kno How On Movies They Have It To Where Yur Talkin To Yurself IN The Mirror...That So Called Trick Happened To Me. Like I Was Actually Lookin At Myself Spazzing, Talkin Bout..."Df Is U Doin Man..Its Only Been A Month Stop Gettin So Comfortable". And Im Still Lookin Like Im Confused. And Im Still Like Spazzing "Yu Dont Get It Do You?, U Fuckin Yaself Up Again With Dis 1st Month Shit..U Dont Even Got The Determination To Keep A Girl Just Give Up" And Then My Mom Called Me...Im On The Phone With Telle And She Kept Askin Me Whats Wrong..Of Course I Just Keep It To Myself. I Always Been Like That...But Im Different With Sammy. She Kept Thinkin Something Was Wrong With Me When There Wasnt..Talking Bout She Feel Useless And Stuff. If She Was Useless I Wouldnt Even Talk To Her..Thats Wat U Call Useless...She Wasnt Around Wen Something Was Wrong So It Wasnt Her Concern, But She Kept Thinkin I Was Just Lyin, When Any Other Time I Would Just Ask If I Can Talk To Her For A Min. And Tell Her The Problem. Hmm...I Would Say Give Up And Just Not Even Have Her Go Threw The Trouble...Hmm To Late For That Huh. Im Not Determined Like Everyone Think I Am. I Just Let Things Down When Im With It Or Around It For A Long Amount Of Time. People Think Diamond Just Did Me Wrong On Her Own Consent...Well I Helped It By Being Too Comfortable. I Keep Sayin Imma Be On My Job...But The Shit Never Happens..So What Makes This Any Different...Yea Sammy Different..Of Course She Is, But At The Same Time, I Think My Other Persona To Say..Fucks With My Head In The Long Run, And Lets Mr.Ol' Pride Kick In Alot. Pain In The Ass Like Seriously Smh...Hmm I Guess All I Can Do Is Put Forth Effort To Make This Last. Although I Feel As If Im Not Strong Enough, Sammys A Strong Woman, Makes Me Feel More Like A Bitch When Im Around Her Cuz Shes The 1st Independent Girl I Been With. I Always Whine And Bitch To Her, Shit I Might As Well Wear A Wig And Some Lip Gloss. Hmm She Doesnt Need My Bullshit, She Aint Got Time For It, I Can Change, That Aint A Issue..Its Just How Long Can I Maintain It..But Hey Once Again..Its All Bout...
Effort
Hmm...I Was Pretty "Eh." On My So Called Comeback From Jail And Shit. Patriots 16-0 Didnt Even GM It. Like All I Watch And I Wasnt Even Happy That Tom Brady Broke Peyton Manning TD Record, Or That Randy Moss Broke Jerry Rice's Record Or For The Fact That They Were The 1st Team To Go 16-0...My Mind Was Just Blank With Thought. Pacing Back And Forth...On The Phone And Ish..And I Stopped At The Mirror..As If I Forgot Something. I Kept Lookin At It..Not Givin No Regard To The Phone. And Like My Mind Was Playin Tricks On Me.
Ya Kno How On Movies They Have It To Where Yur Talkin To Yurself IN The Mirror...That So Called Trick Happened To Me. Like I Was Actually Lookin At Myself Spazzing, Talkin Bout..."Df Is U Doin Man..Its Only Been A Month Stop Gettin So Comfortable". And Im Still Lookin Like Im Confused. And Im Still Like Spazzing "Yu Dont Get It Do You?, U Fuckin Yaself Up Again With Dis 1st Month Shit..U Dont Even Got The Determination To Keep A Girl Just Give Up" And Then My Mom Called Me...Im On The Phone With Telle And She Kept Askin Me Whats Wrong..Of Course I Just Keep It To Myself. I Always Been Like That...But Im Different With Sammy. She Kept Thinkin Something Was Wrong With Me When There Wasnt..Talking Bout She Feel Useless And Stuff. If She Was Useless I Wouldnt Even Talk To Her..Thats Wat U Call Useless...She Wasnt Around Wen Something Was Wrong So It Wasnt Her Concern, But She Kept Thinkin I Was Just Lyin, When Any Other Time I Would Just Ask If I Can Talk To Her For A Min. And Tell Her The Problem. Hmm...I Would Say Give Up And Just Not Even Have Her Go Threw The Trouble...Hmm To Late For That Huh. Im Not Determined Like Everyone Think I Am. I Just Let Things Down When Im With It Or Around It For A Long Amount Of Time. People Think Diamond Just Did Me Wrong On Her Own Consent...Well I Helped It By Being Too Comfortable. I Keep Sayin Imma Be On My Job...But The Shit Never Happens..So What Makes This Any Different...Yea Sammy Different..Of Course She Is, But At The Same Time, I Think My Other Persona To Say..Fucks With My Head In The Long Run, And Lets Mr.Ol' Pride Kick In Alot. Pain In The Ass Like Seriously Smh...Hmm I Guess All I Can Do Is Put Forth Effort To Make This Last. Although I Feel As If Im Not Strong Enough, Sammys A Strong Woman, Makes Me Feel More Like A Bitch When Im Around Her Cuz Shes The 1st Independent Girl I Been With. I Always Whine And Bitch To Her, Shit I Might As Well Wear A Wig And Some Lip Gloss. Hmm She Doesnt Need My Bullshit, She Aint Got Time For It, I Can Change, That Aint A Issue..Its Just How Long Can I Maintain It..But Hey Once Again..Its All Bout...
Effort
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